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விண்ணை தாண்டி வருவாயா என்று கேட்டவுடன் எனக்கு தோன்றிய ஒரு சில வரிகள்

வாழ்க்கையின் அர்த்தம் புரிய
வலியின் விளிம்பில் இருந்து
என்னை மீட்க்க
விண்ணை தாண்டி வருவாயா

பாதை பார்த்து நிற்க
கனவில் நனைந்து நான் காத்திருக்க
தனிமை நீக்க
விண்ணை தாண்டி வருவாயா

நினைவுகள் ததும்ப
மீண்டும் ஒரு வானம் பிறக்க
வேதனை நீங்க
விண்ணை தாண்டி வருவாயா

நீயே என் உணர்வாக
உடம்பாக, உயிராக
உறைந்து கலந்திடவே
விண்ணை தாண்டி வருவாயா

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Friends... No no, not the relationship..but the sitcom F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Everyone who knows me, knows how crazy I am about those six people, its not the real people but the characters I am talking about. How I wish I had a Chandler or a Ross or a Joey or a Monica or a Rachel or a Phoebe in my life...

I have known times of my life, when I feel so down and depressed and feel like I am rotting inside, when watching a coupla these episodes actually cheer me up enough to still go on. You might think I am A classic freak for saying this, but there are so many things to this sitcom, that makes me relate to this so much or make me wanna have something like that.

Be it a life like that, or a bunch of friends who constantly pull jokes on you and yet stick right by your side when you actually need them...

Sometimes I wonder, isn't that what everybody would want?

Bummed !

Whew.. ! Three days and I am already all out of air. Breezing through a calm and very less demanding induction on the first day, ended up staying 4 hours over my shift on my second day itself. To top it, could sleep only for about 3 hours, making me look like a character out of the Dawn of the Dead.

For all the complaining that I did on how I am getting bored being unemployed and it is so great being back at work... Ziippp....

Anyways have to say... Am learning a lot more than I learnt anywhere, already. A host of new things, new people, new processes...

Well whatever happens, happens for a reason right?

Finally Over, Yaay !!

The wait is finally over. The long wait, unemployment, the sickening chore of having to occupy yourself without doing anything the whole long day is finally done and gone with. Getting back to work is such a pleasure, atleast till it grows on you and then you start complaining about the tight schedules and short holidays.

The ambiance of a bustling, sleep deprived, caffiene induced, stress driven work floor always induces the adrenalin and gets you to your feet.

Hoping that it doesn't get to me soon enough to start get boring too soon :)

Love You Like I Do...

"When I lost you, I loved you more... but between the both of us, you lost more because, I can love other people the way I loved you, but you will never be loved the way I used to love you..." - Source Unknown

A silent dance
A soulful tune
A sorrowed whimper
Is all I have of you.

The wind blowing my hair
Reminds of the days
I lived every waking moment
Just to see the smile on your face.

One swift strike
Is all it took
To wipe those emotions away
Out of every cranny and nook.

Now all I remember
Is the pain inside
I'd rather live like this
Than have you beside.

The Weird World of Chat !

Chat.. a word that is common in most people's vocabulary these days. Companies are trying everything to stop people from doing just that and get back to work :) Something that lets us know people better. Something that relieves stress and helps u vent a lot. Something we reserve friendship for.

Internet chat has acted as a medium for the same, however people have misused it to the extent of people wanting to shun it completely as useless technology. The possibility of talking to nameless,faceless yet a living, breathing individual on the other end, who could be a lot like you and maybe understand you better than any person who exists in your life right now, is something to root for..instead of shunning.

But true, the nameless, faceless factor tends to be drawn to a bad advantage by many miscreants as well and it becomes so tough to demarcate the good from the bad. If you are not smart enough, there is a clear chance of losing yourself to it and getting stuck in serious trouble, like I myself did, at a very young, unwise age. Although have also made some lasting friendships through it.

Internet is such a wide and well-rounded media. It has its good and bad sides. To be able to discern and use it wisely, rests with us I guess...

Aal Izz Weell !!

College time... Something that is deemed to be the best period of anyone's life. Something to this day, I regret having missed. But it couldn't be better portrayed than it has been in 3 Idiots.

Being an avid reader of Chetan Bhagat's books, and all the papers screaming about the injustice that has been meted to his story, I was pretty skeptical. But also a huge fan of Aamir and his believable ways, I kept an open mind, when I walked into this movie today.

I was blown away. Not a single second did the movie bank a low. Especially the "Balatkar" scene had me in splits. The pregnancy scene, that caused so much ranting and raving was actually a fabulous, moving and well etched out scene. Couldn't have been put better and with more respect. I don't see the logic behind people finding fault with that.

An extremely endearing and satiric story of the Three Musketeers - Farhan, Raju and Rancho, 3 Idiots is an enchanting portrayal of the life of three good friends, their highs and lows, their strong bond and the connection that keeps relationships like this alive. The story of College, that forms some everlasting relationships.

Madhavan is nowhere to be seen, his role so inconsequential and so is Sharman Joshi. Though their parts are vital for the movie, Aamir easily eats them up. Not only does he look half his age, he fails to tire me with his relentless consistency. Kareena is a perfect fit. A small yet simple and very well done role, which is carried out effortlessly by her. Not to mention how pretty she looks ;)

Being a huge fan of movies, this movie was my Utopia. I have enjoyed movies, but it has been a long time since a movie had moved and entertained me so much.

Not to miss the lesson the movie wishes to drive in. How competition gets to people. How we forget to learn, in our race to win. How amongst the pushing and prodding, we forget to have fun with what we do. Had me hitting myself for not having followed my dream when I wanted to and had me wondering, what if I had. Too late for it anyways huh !

Mindblowing ! A real must watch ! Don't miss it !

What Do You Say...

What do you say..? When that someone you miss so much just stays out of your reach? What do you say..? When this person who seemed so known to you for so long, suddenly seems like an utter stranger? What do you say..? When there is so much distance between you two that no matter how much you stretch, its never quite enough to touch that person's heart? What do you say..? When all you do is wonder how that person is faring, when they are out partying all night? What do you say..? When every turn you take down that familiar lane brings pangs when the other person is probably not even thinking about it as they pass through the same? What do you say..? When the memories that keep haunting you, pull at you despite you wanting to avoid them, when the person in it is out making new memories? What do you say..? When so much changes, that it feels like life never used to be that way, that it all feels like a long distant dream?

What do you say...?

A Long Wait..

I have never quite understood the term "Unemployed". When you walk into an interview sweating your palms out and walk out with an equally soaked offer letter and a smile.. I never realized the importance of holding a job. To me it was always yet another achievement.

There have been umpteen Tamizh movies, that show the hero walking into a lot of companies and then being thrown out on his heel without a job. Never really understood the term..

Till now...

The utter exhilaration of having completed all the dues that I had under my name...made me quit a perfectly fine job and take a break. I truly wanted it at that point, because working non-stop for 5 years does that to you sometimes. But little did I know what I was getting myself into. There were so many people who advised me against it..family...friends stating that I should find a job and then quit, because the market was really bad.. Depression and all..

But cheeky as I was, or putting it more dressily, as overconfident about myself as I was... I quit.

Then I discovered Unemployment.

Not having money, having to wager every time and to count till that last penny, taking dime sized loans from friends, being able to accept flat out that you are jobless(god it is embarrassing, when they are trying to sell you something...), being able to tell friends you cannot join them because you cannot share(when you used to be the one who did all the spending, happily of course...) And well not just the spending factor, but the boredom of whiling time away, calling up friends and find that they are busy and you are disturbing them(when it was vice versa at a point of time), doing everything you can, to keep that morale up...All this and more..courtesy - Unemployment.

It hurts the most when you have to wean a loan to buy your friend a gift on her birthday.. But hey, I made the choice to quit so I might as well face the music huh !!

Can't say its better now, but I am used to it.. Situation is manageable because its just me now and there is no one else to spend for.

But I know I will never forget this phase though. The phase of doing nothing... The phase of waiting...waiting and more waiting...for the one phone call or message that will turn your life on its head.

Have to say.. It is a pretty long wait !

Good Bye 2009 !

What a year...!! What a year it has been.

Ronan Keating's song.. Life is a Rollercoaster is kinda appropriate when it comes to my life I guess. So many episodes, which will remain etched in my life. A very eventful year.. A lot of things that I gained, things I have been yearning for years. A lot of things that I lost, things that I have wanted to savor for the years to come. Some important lessons.. What I believed to be true and right for a very long time, proved wrong.

However, there are no regrets. I accept that the sun has set on many of my relationships. I am willing to learn from it, bury the pain, put it behind me and move on now. I guess life keeps teaching us the same lessons till we learn it well. This time I have. I have been extremely sensible or extremely stupid at different points in my life, but the lessons I have weaned out of these episodes are definitely priceless.

This is just a sign off and goodbye note for the all the people who have left my life. If you're reading this, thank you for everything.. All the laughter, all the memories, all the pain and all the lessons as well. Want to put my head down and thank God for the first time, for teaching me these lessons in the way he has. And thank you for the wonderful people who have entered my life and made it so colorful and eventful and for the company they are going to provide, for the whole of this year...or my life.

So long 2009, and till we meet again (In Jim Carrey's words from the Truman show).. Good Morning, Good Evening and Good Night !

The world's most sensible person and the biggest idiot both stay within us. The worst part is, you can't even tell who is who ~ Chetan Bhagat