A Long Wait..

I have never quite understood the term "Unemployed". When you walk into an interview sweating your palms out and walk out with an equally soaked offer letter and a smile.. I never realized the importance of holding a job. To me it was always yet another achievement.

There have been umpteen Tamizh movies, that show the hero walking into a lot of companies and then being thrown out on his heel without a job. Never really understood the term..

Till now...

The utter exhilaration of having completed all the dues that I had under my name...made me quit a perfectly fine job and take a break. I truly wanted it at that point, because working non-stop for 5 years does that to you sometimes. But little did I know what I was getting myself into. There were so many people who advised me against it..family...friends stating that I should find a job and then quit, because the market was really bad.. Depression and all..

But cheeky as I was, or putting it more dressily, as overconfident about myself as I was... I quit.

Then I discovered Unemployment.

Not having money, having to wager every time and to count till that last penny, taking dime sized loans from friends, being able to accept flat out that you are jobless(god it is embarrassing, when they are trying to sell you something...), being able to tell friends you cannot join them because you cannot share(when you used to be the one who did all the spending, happily of course...) And well not just the spending factor, but the boredom of whiling time away, calling up friends and find that they are busy and you are disturbing them(when it was vice versa at a point of time), doing everything you can, to keep that morale up...All this and more..courtesy - Unemployment.

It hurts the most when you have to wean a loan to buy your friend a gift on her birthday.. But hey, I made the choice to quit so I might as well face the music huh !!

Can't say its better now, but I am used to it.. Situation is manageable because its just me now and there is no one else to spend for.

But I know I will never forget this phase though. The phase of doing nothing... The phase of waiting...waiting and more waiting...for the one phone call or message that will turn your life on its head.

Have to say.. It is a pretty long wait !