I am amused. By the sheer number of times...I end up being the bad person whenever I endeavor to do something good for someone. Either I haven't learnt my lesson well EVERY one of those times, or I am just that thick-skinned that it never sinks in.
There have been brief moments in life, where I have been faced with decisions to make for my loved ones. Ones that could make or break our relationships. Ones that could seriously deface the trust we hold between each other if it turned out wrong. I have still gone ahead and taken those risks, all in good faith, for the benefit of those loved ones.
Turned out to be a humongous mistake ! Livid, guilty, depressed, inarticulate and imprisoned ! A potpourri of all the feelings that could make you feel like living, walking scum. Thats how I feel right now.
God help me !
