Goodbye, my darling!

It was love at first sight. A small bundle of white fur, you came running into my life. I have never been the same since… You grew in size, in person and in my heart, developing those beautiful spots that gave you character. Life for me has been printed with your snowy little paws ever since. You have been a person unto yourself developing the dainty patient character that you were. You have patiently welcomed and waited for those so many people who were scared at first sight and took their time to realize you were a sweetheart. Coming home and seeing your enthusiastic response has been my homecoming for a long time. Home was home because you were waiting for me. I know that I haven’t paid attention to you many times and let my life rule me completely, when you waited patiently, loving me unconditionally through all my hang-ups.  I do not know how I will ever apologize for that, but I know I will repent for it for the rest of my life. As I make the decision to let you go today, I only wish that you will forgive me for everything I did including what I am doing right now and I wish that someday we can be together again, if there is ever an afterlife for us together. As you leave today you are taking that big chunk of my heart that you so lovingly paw-printed and I know it will never be complete again, neither will I. I will miss you so very much my darling! Please be safe, wherever you go and I hope you are happy, wherever you are. Love you, Nila!